No time for grieving

Went to a consult with our specialist this morning. I am starting on provera today which will enduce a period in about 15 days from now. Then I'll be back in for an ultrasound and blood test so that they can determine the next portion of treatment. Looks like I'll be on birth control for 2-4 weeks to even out my hormones and shrink any cysts or follicles that I may have. Then we will be starting in vitro treatment again (late May). . . different dosages though.

The reason our treatment was canceled is because my estrogen levels were too high. This can cause fluid to move into my lungs or heart (worst case scenario). Dr. Davies said that if they had pushed me another day she was afraid I would be hospitalized. In this respect, it's a good thing to know that it was canceled. But still a hard pill to swallow.

We are exhausted today . . . emotionally and physically. We have decided to take Ali's recommendation and go to New Buffalo this weekend for a night away at a great hotel. We are really looking forward to this time to relax.

We also wanted to share another decision that seems to have been made for us. Nathan and I have decided to not move to Minnesota this summer. It is a really hard decision for us but we have made our treatment a priority and need to pursue that. (Treatment is about 15,000 per month in Minnesota and here we pay about 100). While we are sad to not be able to pursue the dream of being in Minnesota right now, we are grateful for God's obvious direction for us at this time. We have been praying for answers in regard to this decision because so many things needed to fall into place and now can rest in our decision.

It's been a long week. . . many open doors have been closed and new doors have opened.

We look forward to the weekend.