I think that our hearts are so fascinating. I've had some good cries since my aunt has passed away but most of my struggle with the reality of it is displaced into crabiness or tiredness. My mind and heart can only handle so much of it so a lot of the time I just kind of feel numb about the whole thing.
I would imagine that the wake and the funeral will give me some time to really start to understand and find closure.
Sanne has been such a great contrast to the circumstance. Last week I watched as Sanne touched Aunt Valerie's ailing body. Valerie remarked at how soft Sanne's skin was. It is so new, so untouched by the sun and life's wear. I watched Sanne look at Valerie . . . laugh and smile at her not knowing that the eyes looking back at her were carrying something really heavy.
I thank God for Sanne and for her new life. She is medicine to me right now. Here are some photos of her adventures from the week.
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okay that was beautiful and made me weepy. can't wait to spend some time with the little gem tonight! you guys are in my heart.
Hi Nathan, Barbara, and Sanne-
My friend AJ told me about your blog last fall when I found out I was pregnant. I've been following your beautiful journey and feel like I know you all even though we have never met. My precious little Lucy is now three months old and I too have been enjoying all the "firsts" of motherhood. I have wanted to send a comment many times but today when I read the last few lines of your blog, I realized something really important. Life has dealt me some huge blows lately but your words made me realize how lucky I am. "I thank God for Lucy and her new life. She is medicine for me right now."
Thanks for your beautiful words.
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